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I was scared for a while, I was scared of how my family was brutally honest with how they treated me. They were never very accepting of me, I never was how they wanted. They wanted a handsome son, one they could marry off to a rich woman so that they could have a better social status. Telling them that I had no interest in women at all was- a bigger mistake that I should have kept to myself. When I said I didn’t want to follow after the steps of my older sister, I was shunned and beat. I was scared to admit to myself that I had darker thoughts than the rest.Perhaps that is why I rather like holding my secrets in and such. Perhaps that is why Visage is the god I feel most comfortable with. We all have secrets after all.
What if though- What if in darkness we can find truth? What if that is where things lay open? In darkness and in death? There is only one way to figure it out. I was told once by a very close woman to our faith that if we are to be struck down, then our father- the one who holds all information will take us into his arms, don't fear the darkness. Maybe this is an ideal that the Dark Order follows as well but, they like to be louder about the plans they hold. I can tell you right away Visage, despite having followers there, may not be a fan of it. Perhaps that is why they aren’t as much as a threat to things as I heard?
There is an issue I find with the Dark Order that The Mother had brought up during our conversation. Not all darkness is evil, something The Order would not agree with ( I honestly do not know their thoughts). Visage is not one of darkness, but just one of secrets, knowledge, whispers, and other elements in the world much like every other god. Visage started out as a blank slate, a slate wishing for the knowledge and stories of the past and fiction to be carved into himself. Is it bad to wish to understand things and learn as much as we can? Is it bad to wish to watch over others and record their victories and mistakes? But then again… No one could ever put a finger on the god’s plans or mind, let alone myself but- I’d like to think he was an innocent soul that was made by his surrounds much like how we are.
We all carry secrets, even the gods we idolize and pray to. So- why is that some are labeled good while others bad? Many other gods had made grave mistakes over and over again while being praised and worshiped. Why can’t we follow the gods who are labeled “bad” just cause they have done worst things? Can we not forgive and try to understand those who control our realm? Cannot we not follow who we wish?
Sorry there is not a lot of organization on this page. I guess I kept writing just to try and think things out about my faith. Father, Please help the world understand along with me.