Friosis
Lord of Altera
- Pronouns
- She/Her
My ban as it has been explained to me, was breaking rules 18. and 19. Disrupting the harmony of hollowworld and inciting drama storms, and meta-gaming.
I shall start with the most glaring one I can see, "Meta-gaming". I'll start by saying the ruling of this accusation was in of itself flawed. I was told upon reaching a destination I had been icly searching for that having been able to find it constituted as "meta-gaming" without the need to check logs or get facts.
Simply put, I had been told to search north for a group, and so my character did. I steered myself north, and went in as close a straight line as I could, while making random turns left or right to simulate "bad navigation". After a while, I had landed on the first landmass large enough to be considered a continent and I started with my best guess of the way to head, which was north east, due to the fact I had to go quite a ways west to get there in the first place. In addition to this, I added my character's bias towards cliffs, and started following the top of the cliffs.
Once the cliff steered me southward, I had recieved a PM from a player telling me I was heading into "unknown territory awfully suspicious", and I took that to mean my curve towards south was putting me right in the direction of the group. I turned around, and went north east instead, where I was then told that my current location implicated me as meta-gaming, and had my entire trip retconned. Later logs were checked, and without a single piece of evidence shared with me I was told to never attempt to seek out the group in RP again.
This reason has many holes in it, the first being that I. Did. Not. Meta-game. As simple as it gets, I did nothing wrong, I simply went in the direction I was told, and without using any maps, dynamaps, or previous ooc information, blindly searched the area until I was told to stop searching in certain directions. I had no idea that this tip was not accurate, and it was not my fault it steered me towards their camp on accident. I simply could not know.
Rules 18 and 19 being broken are fairly accurate. I had grown frustrated and furious over several issues and let myself go into OOC to complain. Shortly afterwards being told to take it to a private conversation. I had gotten tired of my words falling on deaf, or simply uncaring ears, and I tried reaching out in a less than private way, which while not appropriate, was something I felt was justified at the time. I don't feel completely in the right, however I think the issues leading up to these rules being broken and not acknowledged should be considered, before I am banned for being the one to bring them to public eye.
However, the major reason I dispute this now is not to dispute my breaking of rules 18. or 19. The reason I dispute this is that the solution being to ban me will not work. I have been told that "I need a break from the server, so I can reflect on how i'm perceived, and fix issues while away from the players". This is completely contradictory. If I am to see how i'm perceived, and fix the issues of my perception, I need to be able to interact with those perceiving me. Otherwise I am simply left without the ability to RP for a month, and watch while everyone else continues their RP without me, and those who have issues with me validate themselves with my ban.
If a inability to comply to other's points of view is the issue, than I do not see how isolating me from those points of view is going to help. The entire idea behind this ban being a solution is, misguided. It's been described to me as not a punishment, but as a way to try and help. Without really being the kind of help needed to solve these issues.
I can understand if people misunderstand what I am trying to do, I can understand if people simply have issues with me, and I can understand I have made mistakes. But isolation will not help any of those things. I implore you to reconsider your decision, and perhaps find a better way to keep these issues from happening. As many should know, my previous bans have not solved these issues, I do not think this one will be any different.
solus
I shall start with the most glaring one I can see, "Meta-gaming". I'll start by saying the ruling of this accusation was in of itself flawed. I was told upon reaching a destination I had been icly searching for that having been able to find it constituted as "meta-gaming" without the need to check logs or get facts.
Simply put, I had been told to search north for a group, and so my character did. I steered myself north, and went in as close a straight line as I could, while making random turns left or right to simulate "bad navigation". After a while, I had landed on the first landmass large enough to be considered a continent and I started with my best guess of the way to head, which was north east, due to the fact I had to go quite a ways west to get there in the first place. In addition to this, I added my character's bias towards cliffs, and started following the top of the cliffs.
Once the cliff steered me southward, I had recieved a PM from a player telling me I was heading into "unknown territory awfully suspicious", and I took that to mean my curve towards south was putting me right in the direction of the group. I turned around, and went north east instead, where I was then told that my current location implicated me as meta-gaming, and had my entire trip retconned. Later logs were checked, and without a single piece of evidence shared with me I was told to never attempt to seek out the group in RP again.
This reason has many holes in it, the first being that I. Did. Not. Meta-game. As simple as it gets, I did nothing wrong, I simply went in the direction I was told, and without using any maps, dynamaps, or previous ooc information, blindly searched the area until I was told to stop searching in certain directions. I had no idea that this tip was not accurate, and it was not my fault it steered me towards their camp on accident. I simply could not know.
Rules 18 and 19 being broken are fairly accurate. I had grown frustrated and furious over several issues and let myself go into OOC to complain. Shortly afterwards being told to take it to a private conversation. I had gotten tired of my words falling on deaf, or simply uncaring ears, and I tried reaching out in a less than private way, which while not appropriate, was something I felt was justified at the time. I don't feel completely in the right, however I think the issues leading up to these rules being broken and not acknowledged should be considered, before I am banned for being the one to bring them to public eye.
However, the major reason I dispute this now is not to dispute my breaking of rules 18. or 19. The reason I dispute this is that the solution being to ban me will not work. I have been told that "I need a break from the server, so I can reflect on how i'm perceived, and fix issues while away from the players". This is completely contradictory. If I am to see how i'm perceived, and fix the issues of my perception, I need to be able to interact with those perceiving me. Otherwise I am simply left without the ability to RP for a month, and watch while everyone else continues their RP without me, and those who have issues with me validate themselves with my ban.
If a inability to comply to other's points of view is the issue, than I do not see how isolating me from those points of view is going to help. The entire idea behind this ban being a solution is, misguided. It's been described to me as not a punishment, but as a way to try and help. Without really being the kind of help needed to solve these issues.
I can understand if people misunderstand what I am trying to do, I can understand if people simply have issues with me, and I can understand I have made mistakes. But isolation will not help any of those things. I implore you to reconsider your decision, and perhaps find a better way to keep these issues from happening. As many should know, my previous bans have not solved these issues, I do not think this one will be any different.
solus
